Thursday, June 15, 2006
{ 12:31 AM }
This morning I woke up with a jolt, an indescribable feeling overcame me. You know the feeling you get when you've forgotten to do something but you just can't quite put your finger on what exactly you've forgotten to do, except for the fact that I didn't forget to do anything.
It was a sinking feeling, a dull feeling, as if someone you loved just passed away. It was a bad feeling. Maybe it was the stress that was overhauling me, but ironically I don't feel an inch of stress even if the work hours I've been adding into my days may seem to contradict otherwise.
I threw the covers aside, sat straight up, crossed legged in bed and closed my eyes for 10 minutes or so. I did my own little version of meditating, desperately trying to calm my nerves and rid that horrible feeling that was drilling in the back of my head, and prayed. The first time in a long time.
I asked for peace, calamity and protection for all the people I loved. I opened my eyes, looked around and felt somewhat relieved.
It's 3:40 pm. I still don't know what the feeling is, but in that 10minutes of meditation I found my Eden and it was perhaps that time of focus that i channeled all my enegery to peservere and move on with my long schedule today.
I will try it again tomorrow morning.
This morning I woke up with a jolt, an indescribable feeling overcame me. You know the feeling you get when you've forgotten to do something but you just can't quite put your finger on what exactly you've forgotten to do, except for the fact that I didn't forget to do anything.
It was a sinking feeling, a dull feeling, as if someone you loved just passed away. It was a bad feeling. Maybe it was the stress that was overhauling me, but ironically I don't feel an inch of stress even if the work hours I've been adding into my days may seem to contradict otherwise.
I threw the covers aside, sat straight up, crossed legged in bed and closed my eyes for 10 minutes or so. I did my own little version of meditating, desperately trying to calm my nerves and rid that horrible feeling that was drilling in the back of my head, and prayed. The first time in a long time.
I asked for peace, calamity and protection for all the people I loved. I opened my eyes, looked around and felt somewhat relieved.
It's 3:40 pm. I still don't know what the feeling is, but in that 10minutes of meditation I found my Eden and it was perhaps that time of focus that i channeled all my enegery to peservere and move on with my long schedule today.
I will try it again tomorrow morning.