Tuesday, December 05, 2006
{ 4:33 AM }
I've said a lot of things, I try to mean everything I say but sometimes my determination just falters. Been very emo lately; I miss home, my friends, my family, my boyfriend.
All this while I've been searching to be emo. My life before this was pleasantly perfect, I was ever the optimist. I had nothing to be angry about, nothing to feel dull and grey about. Now, I am emo like a pot overflowing with chai.
I feel empty and questioning so many things. I know what my emoness stems from. Next time if I ever need to feel emo, I will turn to that thought, that place.
It's a good feeling though, something I haven't felt in a while. A much needed change.
I'm going back tomorrow. I'm eager as a puppy at the window sill.
Full moon tonight. Turning people all weird and mixed up.
I've said a lot of things, I try to mean everything I say but sometimes my determination just falters. Been very emo lately; I miss home, my friends, my family, my boyfriend.
All this while I've been searching to be emo. My life before this was pleasantly perfect, I was ever the optimist. I had nothing to be angry about, nothing to feel dull and grey about. Now, I am emo like a pot overflowing with chai.
I feel empty and questioning so many things. I know what my emoness stems from. Next time if I ever need to feel emo, I will turn to that thought, that place.
It's a good feeling though, something I haven't felt in a while. A much needed change.
I'm going back tomorrow. I'm eager as a puppy at the window sill.
Full moon tonight. Turning people all weird and mixed up.