Monday, July 23, 2007
{ 2:44 AM }
I've been having such a difficult time trying to find the right words to describe the things I've been going through, all these emotions and hormones surging through my body. They're the culprits to my sometimes rash and random acts.
My daily routine remains somewhat monotonous; work, rest, rummy, bball, poker and the countless sessions of tea. While physically all seems swell, there's so much going on underneath that I just find it so difficult to describe, let alone explain. I can't quite put a finger on what's happening to me but baby steps, baby steps.
Everybody leaves, you know it's true. I want you to stay but that'd just be too selfish of me, to jeopordise the shining bright future ahead of you for a brief moment of satisfaction. Our days are numbered but the days that have passed and the hours spent together - priceless. As much as I want you to stay I will just force a smile and say: I wish you well and I hope to God that this future we both want so badly will be worth it.I think this is as much people-leaving as I can take.
p.s to the KL crew - I'm coming back soon, date yet to be decided. It'll be so wonderful to meet up again. I will let you all in on details. I heard excellent feedback about the Human Rights Campaign. Good work guys, you deserve every single ounce of credit, especially to you Ying. See you guys soon.