Monday, December 10, 2007
{ 3:14 PM }
It's been 7years now. That's 84 months, 2,555 days, 61,320 hours. Didn't really realise that, did you?
I'm pretty self centered, I feel. To think that I hold all the cards, that I carry the heavy burden, that I play the puppet master's role, that I decide fates and that I break hearts. I, I, I...
But when I stop myself for a moment to think of the others. I feel for them because they feel that I hold all the answers, that I am the answer. Here I go again, being all self centered.
I hate speaking in codes. I hate having to find a way to divert, to tease the minds of those who do read. To be all ambiguous and vague about who or what I'm talking about, and bear in mind there almost always is a who and what.
I hate losing, be it a game, a match, an argument, a person and I especially hate being a disappointment. But I think some things are just inevitable.
I guess what I want to say here tonight, because none of my friends would really know the depth of what I'm trying to profess, is that it's been 7 years and all I know that right now, this very living, breathing moment you mean the world...
to me.
And I am very, very thankful.
So, this one's for you.